Some things take a little longer, but then become all the more intense for it. I´m a woman in my mid fifties and started working with 3D a few years ago, basically to challenge myself, but quickly became "addicted" to everything related to it. Before Covid, I was active in various user groups and meetups on the subject, of which there are plenty in Berlin, and I was planning to found a studio for architectural visualizations in the course of 2020, but due to the crisis the chances were not too good. I became aware of NFTs at some point in early 2021 and decided to venture into this area with my creativity and my art.
I thought long and hard about whether and how much to reveal about myself. Not only now in relation to NFTs, the question has come up again and again in the past years when I have tried to market my art beyond my freelance activities, I had always decided against taking a stand on my person, but then just a piece of authenticity was missing and I got a lot of positive feedback on my work, but the success somehow still failed.
I am a former transsexual woman, according to today's wording probably a transgender, a term I have never used for myself and with which I also cannot identify. For me it was never ever a problem of my identity but a physical problem, to be subsumed under that term means to be trapped in that box forever and I deeply believe that everyone should also have the chance to arrive somewhere at some point and not always be pigeonholed. In the last 15 years I have been panic-stricken to keep as much distance as possible from this topic, to deny part of my past and just live my life.
That being said, this life journey has given me a very unique view of the world in general and our society that I am truly grateful for.
I have always been a very creative person, made music, engaged in painting, photography and earned my living as a graphic designer.
However, the further my life progressed, the more miserable I felt inside, the feeling of being stuck in the "wrong body" intensified into the unbearable and so I had my coming out in the nineties with a big bang:)
I had driven my middle-class life into the ground and put my transition in all its contradictoriness and fragility on stage in a freaky rock'n roll show "lucilla & the temple of love " and linked it with art exhibitions of my fetish/BDSM drawings and paintings from that time. The project was flashy and attracted a lot of attention, we also produced a CD, but commercially the whole thing was not a success.
In the early noughties I moved from the province to Berlin and worked behind the scenes of the then booming fetish industry as a photographer and designer. In 2009 a collection of this work had been exhibited in Berlin in the Galerie Friedrichshöhe. >> read more here
Later I took on more and more conventional jobs. Various photo exhibitions with landscape photography, nature and lost places here in Berlin supported the change.
Nevertheless, I always moved in a field of tension between extremes, for example, I worked for a long time at the same time for very conservative clients and various Dungeons, which always included the danger of mixing up the jobs ;)
Today, a lot of peace and serenity has entered my life, meditation, the occupation with spiritual themes and of course my art helps me to get through these strange times and I think I'm on the right track, if I do not separate my personal development from my current appearance, but really try to bring everything under one roof and I hope that this makes my art more "experienceable", more comprehensible.